| Long time since Ive updated I am pregnant that is all |
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| I am mentally tired which cause alot of physical exhaustion. I know maybe 2 people read this but ill write on.
I am tired of apologizing for things i didnt cause, actions i never committed, and feeling guilty for making people cry who have wronged me in multiple ways.
Step 1: let go of past
step 2: DON'T do anything else till you can confidently do so.
I shouldn't have to feel like shit because i married now and everyone around me is being spitful because they havent either found someone to spend their lives with or theyre having problems with their significant others. Im not being full of myself I have NOTICED everyone change their behavior towards me, those so called bullshit friends and i dont fucking appriciate it one bit. I cant spell...
But oh well the legions of miserable people overrun the group of happy people.
Point being
I wont drink like i did last night for awhile.
sigh im going to go eat something
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| slightly hung over but thats alright. Note to self after vomiting i still have ulcers.
Long time since ive actually wrote in here.
well alot has happened to write about.
Moved out with nolan
Got married on friday.
Thats right i am married now to nolan.
My hair is flaming pink.
Im still working at the alamo.
I feel like vomiting again.
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| so Ive discovered I need money, badly. I should move out and stop being a burden on my family. I need 4 ,000 dollars. - to do list:
- get new drivers license
- pay dad back 140 dollars
- pay back chris 20 bucks
- set up checking account
- look at classes for next semester
bleaching the front of my hair and dying it purple WOOT! those are my plans for tonight. Besides studying my ass off for finals, I HAVE to pass all of these. I feel....really strange |
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| its 5:39am and i just got home. After returning to my car i saw that ryan had left the lights on or something so it was dead, yay for jumper cables and having 2 in my car.
I fell back into horrific depression, yay the joy of it all really. But after nolan and ryan left i had this horrible feeling in my stomach that something was about to go very wrong, it was right of course. All i can do now is sit here and feel bad.
Ill try to sleep in a little while.
Trained hilary today, that was interesting and im proud of myself how i handled it.
upon waking: commense the room cleaning, the bathroom bleaching, and the clothes washing.
work at 4pm tomorrow woot.
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